:( off to kl u go :(
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
4:01 PM
while sleeping suddenly my hp sounded as i received a text msg and hoping it was her,and it is her!saying"morning kudutz!!im off to kl..c ya..mish ya!!"so thinking that she's moving off any time soon so i decided to text her and see if i am lucky enough to get through her before leaving,she replied saying that she's moving off tonight,so the texting continued,critisizing each other,comments about both of us,fairy tales stories to be heard from her as usual,this and that....bla,bla,bla...slowly,knowing the truth out of her for after so long,she says that im still in her heart and nothing could change that,is it just a saying to make me feel secure?or just messing around?well after a couple of msges thats where i know how she felt towards me,everything has change between us.how i wished i've known u now not then so that i'll not go through what im going through now,it hurts real bad everytime i tend to recall everything,damn.i just love u too much and that's why this feeling just cant be erase from me.
i wanna forget u totally but no,u keep messing up in my mind!why?!?!why u?why cant i move on with some other girls???u messed up my life totally.why cant we just be like normal couples and instead being apart as time to time.i feel grateful n appreciated for u being apart of me and my life.i hope there is a happy ending to us in the end.thats what im hoping now.
i wanna forget u totally but no,u keep messing up in my mind!why?!?!why u?why cant i move on with some other girls???u messed up my life totally.why cant we just be like normal couples and instead being apart as time to time.i feel grateful n appreciated for u being apart of me and my life.i hope there is a happy ending to us in the end.thats what im hoping now.
Labels: i miss the old u, the old us
happy birthday lady lala!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
1:21 PM
as the hours flew before it reaches 12 midnight,feeling bad for not getting her any gifts for her birthday,im totally broke dude!damn!but i promised her that i would make a raincheck on getting her presents later on.there it goes watch clock at 12am and soon the date sets in at 280409.quickly grab my phone to text her and her friend phone just in case she didnt receive my text on her phone.but still silence occur after texting,no reply.guess she's out celebrating with her friends.i decided to give it one last go after that its up to her whether on replying or not,as soon as i reached home i received a text from her using her friend hp,so we texted and she told me that she was at grandlink with her friends celebrating and it was unexpected that her ex or watsoeva had planned her birthday and gave her a surprise,but indeed she told me that however she doesnt want to mit him and somehow she would fly off to tamp to meet me and its like whatever dude.soon however they went to shenton way to party world to "karaoke"wit her "ex-bf"and friends.its like they are having some good time together or shit.but still the texting keeps going on and then she called me and we had a short conversation and hung up.as she promised to call me as soon as she's done.waited till fell asleep,looks like she's njoying her birthday,thats good for her.
(fuck up feelings)
ever felt like shit running through ur entire body when the other party is messing with your feelings.it sucks dude.especially for me,confusing,complicating situations right now,she doesnt want any commitment right now,so dont pin on any hopes for me,ignore me please,i dont want to feel anymore any of those feeling once shattered every bits n pieces of me,yes i do love you but i dont wanna get trap in ur world animore with ur lies and everything but the other side of me just love u too much and cant avoid the positives feelings for u.what shall i do?
(fuck up feelings)
ever felt like shit running through ur entire body when the other party is messing with your feelings.it sucks dude.especially for me,confusing,complicating situations right now,she doesnt want any commitment right now,so dont pin on any hopes for me,ignore me please,i dont want to feel anymore any of those feeling once shattered every bits n pieces of me,yes i do love you but i dont wanna get trap in ur world animore with ur lies and everything but the other side of me just love u too much and cant avoid the positives feelings for u.what shall i do?
Labels: hate it when this times comes
snappy day for me
Sunday, April 26, 2009
5:07 PM
woke up at my bed looking right next to me,saw a familiar face sleeping right next to me,is it for real?or am i just imagining things?slowly i kiss her forehead and playing with her hair and hell yes it was her :) the one thing i would imagine everyday before going to sleep."how happy i would be to have her to be right next to me whenever i need her yet missing her so much"it just felt so right hugging her,kissing her yet cuddling with her.and the only one thing that might be confusing me till now,i guess she wouldnt want any commitment at the moment as what she's been through recently."be single she said to me and she will be too"i was liked wth?hmm.clueless on what her saying's are.but was one sure worth it spending time with her the whole entire day with her till talking tripping and sleepy moments,lol.went to have dinner with her and after so long she did it again,scolded me for something that is not right with her food,damn i had it when she does that to me and even i insisted on changing it fer her and there she goes throwing tantrums all over me,well somethings do never change.but somehow i do feel sad for seeing such huge change in her,so skinny!ishk!some boyfriend u call,giving or taking d***s to your gf.that just wont do for me,not my style dude!hope she'll eat herself to the word FAT.lol.the word skinny does not suit you dear.so eat more!!
(STONED)
after sending her off to shirin's decided to chill my day off with my friends,chatted,laughed,criticised people around us.haha.waited till midnight till we found ourselves a drown spot where we could drown ourself.and there acoy goes rolling and grinding that shit up.we SMOKED!i was drowning myself to that place,tripping here and there.what the fcuk!split sec i recall myself talking to someone and then off i go to another place.i am fucked up man!people laughing!alot of voives running throuh my ears yet no one is talking!haha.felt good.went to mc'd to grab food to eat.as it the stoned cuts down a lil and finished our food,rolled more joints and smoke!time passes that fast as it soon reaches 5.30 am,headed home stonely and stone myself off till 9am till i felt asleep.hell of a day!
(credits:azroy'v)
(STONED)
after sending her off to shirin's decided to chill my day off with my friends,chatted,laughed,criticised people around us.haha.waited till midnight till we found ourselves a drown spot where we could drown ourself.and there acoy goes rolling and grinding that shit up.we SMOKED!i was drowning myself to that place,tripping here and there.what the fcuk!split sec i recall myself talking to someone and then off i go to another place.i am fucked up man!people laughing!alot of voives running throuh my ears yet no one is talking!haha.felt good.went to mc'd to grab food to eat.as it the stoned cuts down a lil and finished our food,rolled more joints and smoke!time passes that fast as it soon reaches 5.30 am,headed home stonely and stone myself off till 9am till i felt asleep.hell of a day!
(credits:azroy'v)
Labels: didnt know such wimp exist
tripping candies
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
8:06 PM
yesterday was fill with fun and tripping day for me and acoy,acoy ask me to accompany him to marina square to "ED HARDY" shop coz he wanted to buy some cool shirt over,so we decided to head to SMU for a while to meet up wit an old fren to grab some goodies stuff and head to marina,well as we arrived there not even a single sign of ed hardy shop then i told acoy why not we head to town in order we are at around town,so we took the bus to town and find a nice spot to drink our tonic energy drink and here we go making stoopid faces once we drank it,hahaha.
(ED)
reached heeren and window shopped around the mall and head to ed hardy,acoy bought this cool shirt for $200 plus man,fcuking cool shirt he got,but a hassle to take care of the shrit coz it has alot of so called sequins on the shirt,afterthat we went to cinelesuire to watch 17 again,as for me the story was damn boring or its just that because that we've consume those things and make us felt uneasy while watching the movie,both of us were fidgetting on the seats.hahaha,show ended we took the cab home and there i go tripping away at home and while sleeping.wth!!
(HARDY)
(ED)
reached heeren and window shopped around the mall and head to ed hardy,acoy bought this cool shirt for $200 plus man,fcuking cool shirt he got,but a hassle to take care of the shrit coz it has alot of so called sequins on the shirt,afterthat we went to cinelesuire to watch 17 again,as for me the story was damn boring or its just that because that we've consume those things and make us felt uneasy while watching the movie,both of us were fidgetting on the seats.hahaha,show ended we took the cab home and there i go tripping away at home and while sleeping.wth!!
(HARDY)
Labels: thanks acoy for the treat :)
"sunday"skateboard gathering day
Monday, April 20, 2009
11:50 AM
SUNDAY
started of my day waking up early at 11,coz its east coast skatepark today! for the second time im gonna skate there,meet syed at 4 at his place and off we head to east coast,reached there settle down and syed and don started sk8ing oreadi as which i need to wait for farid to get hold on my new girl deck(rick mccrank)as time flies and its already 5 pm and still no sign of farid then suddenly he came with yan.quickly took out my tool and started fix my trucks onto my new deck and off i go strolling in the park first.nazeer and wan johor and their peeps were there too.stated off first trys over at euro gap doing a frontside flip and as for the THIRD try i pulled it off!!now off to the flatbar coping landed a(lipslide,k-grind,tailslide,5-0,last but not least nollie backside lip)damn i still need to improve on all tricks in order to catch up with all the good sk8ers,but must admit it,its good enough for at what i am now as i only skated for 5 mths up till now.lightning started to sound and black clouds started drawing near us!damn its gonna rain any minute now and for my last try i tried a big handrail flatbar for a noseslide!pooff!!landed!!
(TRKT)
all of us walked away from the sk8park and went to this hawker centre to eat our dinner,we bought stingray,veggies,squids and barbeque chicken.one hell of a dinner dawg.as soon as we finish eating and heard a good news from(chai)as he said that there light over at sunplaza!we quickly head there to sk8 as its been quite a long time since we skated there.felt happy that theres no one at sunplaza only the four of us including zamir the late comer,skated till late and suddenly farid came up with this idea on playing a game,whoever do a fakie big flip and landed 5 tries is the winner yet the last person who finish off must"BOGEL!!!!"wakakaka,have always love this type of games but hate end up being the loser,hahaha,who does right?so,4 of us played and guess what i was the only one who had 1 out of many tries and the rest have reached like 3 to 4 attempts already,so i catch up with the rest and only left wit me and elfie standing,and we was equalise by 4 me and 4 elfie only last try dude,and farid say that this last trick must not be scatchy and like always do i won!!!haha.yeah!!jeng3!!another nude skater at sunplaza including a photoshoot,haha
(TRKT)
finish our day at around 12 plus and head home,with bruise heel,cramp legs,bruise knee cap with all those sk8ing injuries.but it was fun thou,worth for it!!
(TERRORKOTA)
started of my day waking up early at 11,coz its east coast skatepark today! for the second time im gonna skate there,meet syed at 4 at his place and off we head to east coast,reached there settle down and syed and don started sk8ing oreadi as which i need to wait for farid to get hold on my new girl deck(rick mccrank)as time flies and its already 5 pm and still no sign of farid then suddenly he came with yan.quickly took out my tool and started fix my trucks onto my new deck and off i go strolling in the park first.nazeer and wan johor and their peeps were there too.stated off first trys over at euro gap doing a frontside flip and as for the THIRD try i pulled it off!!now off to the flatbar coping landed a(lipslide,k-grind,tailslide,5-0,last but not least nollie backside lip)damn i still need to improve on all tricks in order to catch up with all the good sk8ers,but must admit it,its good enough for at what i am now as i only skated for 5 mths up till now.lightning started to sound and black clouds started drawing near us!damn its gonna rain any minute now and for my last try i tried a big handrail flatbar for a noseslide!pooff!!landed!!
(TRKT)
all of us walked away from the sk8park and went to this hawker centre to eat our dinner,we bought stingray,veggies,squids and barbeque chicken.one hell of a dinner dawg.as soon as we finish eating and heard a good news from(chai)as he said that there light over at sunplaza!we quickly head there to sk8 as its been quite a long time since we skated there.felt happy that theres no one at sunplaza only the four of us including zamir the late comer,skated till late and suddenly farid came up with this idea on playing a game,whoever do a fakie big flip and landed 5 tries is the winner yet the last person who finish off must"BOGEL!!!!"wakakaka,have always love this type of games but hate end up being the loser,hahaha,who does right?so,4 of us played and guess what i was the only one who had 1 out of many tries and the rest have reached like 3 to 4 attempts already,so i catch up with the rest and only left wit me and elfie standing,and we was equalise by 4 me and 4 elfie only last try dude,and farid say that this last trick must not be scatchy and like always do i won!!!haha.yeah!!jeng3!!another nude skater at sunplaza including a photoshoot,haha
(TRKT)
finish our day at around 12 plus and head home,with bruise heel,cramp legs,bruise knee cap with all those sk8ing injuries.but it was fun thou,worth for it!!
(TERRORKOTA)
funniest scene ever!!
Friday, April 17, 2009
3:18 PM
(ikin)
yesterday was a wonderful bright sunny day which four of us hang out over at tampines 1 which recently open,so i azroy,ikin and k.kong loitered at the new mall,nothing much there,the mall was quite cramp as everyone was walking in the mall and there's this one shop at t1 called "uniqlo" was damn pack with people queing outside,well it is a famous japan apparels and s'poreans are such kiasu people to check it out.
(is)
after that we decided to head to tamp mall and century square to find a spot to eat our dinner so we headed to food culture to get our dinner.after eating we headed out to the smoking area out to get a puff of ciggys,after smoking we head right back in,and this is the funny part starts,"ikin the bengman" was walking right towards the glass door where he was supposed to push it open but his stoopidness came that day,he walked right through without even noticing that glass panel right infront of him and then,BANG!!!hitting his forehead at the glass panel.hhahahaahaha,fcuk man,what was he thinking?!?!?"tu la nk step cool lagi depan pompuan!"hahaha,everyone in the food court look at him and started laughing their hearts out and same goes for me and acoy,damn!!hahaha,he walked out the food court quickly as he was embarrased to the max!!i laughed till i get stomach cramps and till now when i recall the incident i would giggle all by myself!
(the biggest bengman ever!!!)
yesterday was a wonderful bright sunny day which four of us hang out over at tampines 1 which recently open,so i azroy,ikin and k.kong loitered at the new mall,nothing much there,the mall was quite cramp as everyone was walking in the mall and there's this one shop at t1 called "uniqlo" was damn pack with people queing outside,well it is a famous japan apparels and s'poreans are such kiasu people to check it out.
(is)
after that we decided to head to tamp mall and century square to find a spot to eat our dinner so we headed to food culture to get our dinner.after eating we headed out to the smoking area out to get a puff of ciggys,after smoking we head right back in,and this is the funny part starts,"ikin the bengman" was walking right towards the glass door where he was supposed to push it open but his stoopidness came that day,he walked right through without even noticing that glass panel right infront of him and then,BANG!!!hitting his forehead at the glass panel.hhahahaahaha,fcuk man,what was he thinking?!?!?"tu la nk step cool lagi depan pompuan!"hahaha,everyone in the food court look at him and started laughing their hearts out and same goes for me and acoy,damn!!hahaha,he walked out the food court quickly as he was embarrased to the max!!i laughed till i get stomach cramps and till now when i recall the incident i would giggle all by myself!
(the biggest bengman ever!!!)
Labels: jgn act cool depan pompuan
guess who's back!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
2:56 PM
been gone for a period of time,alot of things to settle out for,no work no money yet no talk.lessons are only once a week for the time being,every day is such a stressful life for me to encounter as day passes by,had fun over the weekend,was out with a whole bunch of fun peeps to sentosa and most valued fren mr azroy'v,we swim,smoked,laughed,tripped and stuck in a bad weather but most important thing everyone enjoyed themself.
(PoKeRfAcE)
met someone whom i really miss since she's gone,very saddening moment for me,first of all she looked like bamboo stick for god sake,lol secondly same old pretty bitch,hahaha.hmm,kinda awkward for me tho but i'll get use to it after a few minutes,after all what's there to be ashame about meeting ur ex's,talk about the past we faced and bout the present relationship she's having right now,well for what i see she's really happy with the person she is with right now,and thats good to hear too but it might hurt sometimes in there,but i'm happy for her,as long that she's happy with her decisions and choices she make in life,most shocking news was she's gonna get engage this june,wth right??that's kinda hard for me to take it man,what would u feel if the woman u love most is getting engage or married.well maybe some things are not meant to be ours for life.
(sHiTfAce)
while waiting for syed to arrived,this is the ample time i could use to blog ever since i've not been blogging for mths!!
will be back real soon,watch out for me ya:)
(PoKeRfAcE)
met someone whom i really miss since she's gone,very saddening moment for me,first of all she looked like bamboo stick for god sake,lol secondly same old pretty bitch,hahaha.hmm,kinda awkward for me tho but i'll get use to it after a few minutes,after all what's there to be ashame about meeting ur ex's,talk about the past we faced and bout the present relationship she's having right now,well for what i see she's really happy with the person she is with right now,and thats good to hear too but it might hurt sometimes in there,but i'm happy for her,as long that she's happy with her decisions and choices she make in life,most shocking news was she's gonna get engage this june,wth right??that's kinda hard for me to take it man,what would u feel if the woman u love most is getting engage or married.well maybe some things are not meant to be ours for life.
(sHiTfAce)
while waiting for syed to arrived,this is the ample time i could use to blog ever since i've not been blogging for mths!!
will be back real soon,watch out for me ya:)
Labels: lady gaga is her fav singer now
Saturday, April 11, 2009
4:11 AM
Sorry for not updating.
Laptop down. Will be back soon.
:)
